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Tinkerty-tonk

The sun popped up over Durham this morning, all hot and bright and showing off, and the gibbous moon was still hanging over Chadsford Hall with a smile on her face and a "Back at'cha!" on her lips. 

For some reason, a bit of trivia surfaced in my head. You know how these trivia do surface and the surfacing that arose was that the full moon of December has been known as the Cold Moon, the Yule Moon, the Snow Moon, and the Peach Moon by various members of my ancestors. 

Peach Moon? The thought causes one to pause and scratch the chin, or so it was with me.


Driving through the park--Research Triangle Park, not Duke Forest, not Hope Valley, and not the Cary Auto Park--I was listening to 70's-on-7, not that I chose it but because Ms. Wonder had been in my car on yestereve. I, of course, listen to 80's-on-8 but you know how it is when two people of proud constitution differ in opinion--governments have been known to put the cat out when it happens.

My morning had begun with that uncomfortable feeling I sometimes get that I am expected somewhere and yet there isn't a jot of a clue about where I'm supposed to be. You know the feeling I'm sure. Napoleon, I'm told felt the same when his courier brought the word that Nelson had sailed into Cairo harbor and burned the French fleet. Wouldn't surprise me to learn that Catherine the Great had the feeling just before removing her husband from the throne. 

"Poopsie," I said, "I feel as though I'm supposed to be somewhere today."

"Where?" she said.

"Ah, that's the 64-thousand-dollar question, isn't it? I confess I don't know."

"You'll have to explain that 64-dollar question but not right now. I need to be somewhere soon. Besides, you're probably experiencing a hangover from the manic day you had yesterday."

"Manic?" I said and I put a little topspin on it because I didn't like her choice of words. You wouldn't like them either if you lived in my head.

"I just mean that your day was hectic. It must have been annoying."

"Not really. About normal I'd say."

"If you do have an appointment, I'm sure you'll think of it in time," she said.

"But that's the problem," I said. "I have to get ready for the day as though I have an appointment even if I don't. Otherwise, when I remember where I'm supposed to be, I won't have time to get ready."

"It will be fine," she said. "I've got to hurry to get to the office. We're expecting a delegation from South Africa this morning and I want to make sure we have African coffee rather than Costa Rican."

"Ms. Wonder," I said because we Genomes strive to be useful at all times, "if you visited China would you want a hamburger for lunch rather than Szechuan stir-fry?"

"Gotta run," she said. "Bye."

Now, as you well know, I always look to this Wonder Woman for comfort and advice, and this lack of the rally-round spirit had left me off-balance. I quickly dressed for my appointment, if any, casual and loose to accommodate the morning qigong but clean and neat as required by the Mom code.  

I took Wind Horse out of the stable and hied for the open road but the mind was still looking under the mental carpet for the mislaid appointment. 

Default mode is the name I've heard for this zone where the lazy mind gets lost.This default mode often turns to the negative poles and, if you have a limbic system like mine, Reason may even step down from her throne. Thrones do not remain vacant for long and when Reason departs, Chaos moves in. 

Chaos is the realm of Princess Amy and she was in rare form this morning telling me a story unfit for human consumption and although Bobby Bloom was singing Montego Bay on the radio, I was caught up in the unsavory story. It was like the 5:00 news. 

Still, when Amy got to the part of her story that caused my spine to vibrate like the strings of a mandolin, my state of mind, as Shakespeare might have put it, like a little kingdom suffered the nature of an insurrection

I quickly assessed the danger, broke free from Amy's glamor, and told her to shut her pie hole.

Before you tut-tut, let me point out that vinegar, despite popular opinion to the contrary, often gives more satisfying results than honey when dealing with pests. It's true! Wonder will attest to it. And it was just at the moment I was telling Amy what to do with her phantasma or hideous dream that I broke out of default mode and heard Bobby Bloom singing,

"Oh, what a beautiful morning
Oh, what a beautiful day
And I got a beautiful feeling
Everything's going my way."

I was drawn into the feeling. I sang along with Mr. Bloom and if I sang a little too loudly, what of it? With a Peach Moon smiling in the sky and the morning sun in a chirpy mood, I felt that the lark must surely be on the wing and all was right with the world. 

As for my worries, they were nothing more than the idle wind and I gave them a wet smack and a miss. Tinkerty-tonk about sums up the whole affair. I do hope that appointment wasn't my weekly session with Susan Studebaker. 

Strange and Wonderful

The sky overlooking the Port of Wilmington (ILM) is bright and beautiful to those who're connected to the outside world. But in my world, the sky is overcast in a gray mist about the color of the Battleship North Carolina. My world has been sad since Tuesday. 


It's Princess Amy's fault of course. She granted me almost two weeks of unbridled boredom, a record length of time for this mood warrior to be free of anxiety. And now today, for no reason at all-- depression.

Before I say more about that, I should make it clear that I've gotten used to her face, as the old song goes, and I suppose I like having her around. After all, she puts up with the worst of me and that's saying a lot.

But I'm trying to be philosophical today or poetic or maybe fantastical; is that a word, fantastical?

Today it's hard to get in touch with my spirit and I have to look hard just to see my astral body, lying in a heap on the River Walk, held down by the enormous wings that, on sunlit days, carry me above the clouds and put a smile on my face.

If you're thinking that the Genome is having a bad morning, then you're right. A bad morning isn't the half of it. Still, as I write this, I've just come out of 24 South, the caffeine emporium at the end of the River Walk in downtown Wilmington. Not the Wilmington in Delaware; it's the one in North Carolina that I'm talking about. Wilma to my inner circle.

Yes, I have a steaming cup of Jah's brew-ha-ha and I have a Spotify playlist streaming through my earbuds and I can feel my spirit stirring.

Did I say stirring? I should have said rising up on, let me see, how does it go? Something about stones of perhaps the dead past? Ms. Wonder will know. I'll ask when I get back home.

At any rate, stirring, rising up, defiant. More to the point, I'm mad as hell and I'm not going to take it anymore. Damn the torpedoes! Full speed ahead! I'm breaking through the clouds and into the sunshine. I'll soar above the abyss!

I know what you're thinking right now. You're thinking, Genome! Be careful! You may not make it. Better to be calm, take it easy and enjoy your coffee. Remember Icarus.

But I've had it with taking the familiar path. I'm going to throw myself into the chaos of the unfamiliar. I've had plenty of experience navigating the quantum waves of uncertainty and right now I feel like a starship commander running an enemy blockade. 

Amy!, Rev up the hyperdrive to warp speed and jump to hyperspace! We're going through!

I'll keep you updated regularly on progress. Check back often because I can't do this without you. You know that. Leave a comment so that I'll know you were here.

And before I forget, let me say that fantastical, is a word and it means strange and wonderful, like something out of a fantasy story. That's what I aspire to write; something strange and wonderful. 

By the way, Ms. Wonder tells me that the phrase I was stumbling over is, rising on stepping-stones of the dead self. I know! If I'd known the exact phrasing, I'd have used something else. 



You Are Enough

"You've heard it said that you can't please everyone," I said. Well, I'm here to tell you that you can't please anyone but yourself if that."



"Are you talking to me," asked the woman about to sit at the table next to ours.


"He's practicing for the little speech he's giving later today," said Lupe in response to the question.


"Oh," said the woman and sat down at the table apparently deciding that I was no real threat.


Now you're probably wondering what's going to happen next because you know as well as I that this Lupe, mature beyond her years full to the brim with particle physics and differential equations, is about as stable as a hot quark.


And you'd be right to wonder. With a manner that's usually reserved for BFFs, she leaned over to the woman and said, "You alone are enough. You have nothing to prove to anybody."


The woman, let's call her Solveigh because she had the look of someone who regularly spends weeks without seeing the sun.


"Excuse me?" said Solveigh. 


"Maya Angelou," said Lupe.


Solveigh turned her eyes to mine as though asking for assistance.


"Sorry," I said. "I'm a stranger here myself."


Solveigh turned to look at Lupe again. Now I was confused. I would think that once would be enough but apparently she's one of the devotees of Rumi and willing to give everyone the benefit of the doubt.


"If you look to others for validation, then you already have one foot on the banana skin," said Lupe and I'm sure she meant it to be an explanation.


Solveigh stood, picked up her latte, and headed for the door. Lupe watched her walk away.


"Too bad," I said. "I sensed that she has an interesting story to tell."


Lupe didn't reply.


"Don't you agree?" I asked.


"Well," said the godneice in a deeply thoughtful way, "you know what they say. You can measure the location or the momentum, but you can't measure both."


"Is this about quantum physics?" I asked.


"Isn't everything?" she said.


"Very true," I said. "Life comes hard and fast, especially when you're not paying attention."


National Coffee Day

So apparently September 29th is National Coffee Day, a day that means a lot to me as so many of the treasures in my life are directly related to and, in many cases, due to the consumption of infusions of that little, dark, bean. The infusions that I call Jah's Sweet Mercy because that's what it is, of course.


Not only has my life been blessed with the gifts redolent in a steaming cup of bohea, but many of the great men and women of history fueled their success on the shoulders of coffee. I'm certain of it. Probably,

I mean to say people like Catherine the Great couldn't have accomplished so much in so little time without the help of caffeine (and you shouldn't believe half those stories). 

I'm sure that I remember reading somewhere that Napoleon spoke highly of the beverage while exiled on that little island and for my part, I find it incredible that Alexander was able to get out of Macedonia without the stuff.

So you can readily understand that when I learned this morning that I had missed the celebration, I decided to celebrate by imbibing an extra cup or two, which is the only decent thing to do, so if you haven't already, do the right thing and stop by your favorite caffeine slinger's stand and enjoy a cup of bean.
Go Bean Traders!

This post was first published on October 1, 2012! I know! I've updated it on Sep 27, 2023! I know! Who'da thunk? I've added this postscript because this year September 29 will be the date of the Full Super Moon, the third one this year if my reckoning is correct. Just more reason to drink a cup of the steaming. Enjoy!

George Takei Believes in Me

Life comes hard and fast and if we aren't prepared, we can be overwhelmed by it. But it doesn't have to be that way. Fierce living keeps me free of the tyranny of emotional overload and I'm convinced that it will work for anyone. 


Sharing my personal life with the general public is not a little scary. Still, this morning I feel much better about it because I've been reading George Takei's blog. That's right. George Takei navigated the Starship Enterprise to destinations where no one had been before. And he didn't stop there.

Mr. Takei continues to chart new paths. George believes in the power of people to change the world. I'm convinced he believes that I can reach my goals if I just set a course and don't waver.

Several years ago I met a man who understood the pain and hopelessness that filled my life at the time. He suggested a different way of living, one that had completely transformed his life. I told him that I was afraid to try. Afraid that I would fail and be left hopeless. 

"You don't have to believe that it will work for you," said this man who I would later recognize as one of the winners in the game of life, "you only need to believe that I believe it works for me."

He explained that his life had changed so dramatically and all for the better because he followed a specific set of guidelines. If I followed those same guidelines, he said, then I would experience the same results that transformed his life. 

I followed his suggestions because I believed in him and it worked! Today I am free of the limitations of yesterday and I'd like to be an instrument of healing for others who suffer emotionally the way I have.

The most curious thing about the path I'm on is that when I do my best to help others, I reap the same benefits. It's a way of life that only works if you share it with others.

That's why I share the events of my life with others--to help them and to help me. It's sometimes funny and it's sometimes embarrassing. It's always a little scary for me, but hey! I believe in George Takei and he believes that I can do this so I keep doing it.

I know! George Takei believes in me! Life is good!