I Believe in Magic

Moonlight fell softly like a quiet rain outside my bedroom window and I lay awake watching Abbie as he watched the moonlight. And he did watch the light, quietly, intently, and with a singular purpose. There was just enough pale illumination to outline his ears, ever alert, to the sounds of early morning silence. His eyes, wide open, and curious, reflected the magic of a nearly full moon, and I was able to appreciate that magic as a reflection of his fascination.

It has always been this way since he arrived in our lives. He was only a few months old when we adopted him. The name on his passport reads, Abracadabra, named by the 8 year-old daughter of the foster family that cared for him as a kitten. It seems only a few months ago that Ms Wonder sent a photo to me of a little black and white guy, the markings that we call a tuxedo--black waistcoat, white ascot, white gloves, white spats. Very formal.

Although it has been at least 10 years, I still remember that photo in detail. His eyes were wide and round, as though the world he saw through those eyes was full of fascination and wonder. It was magic at first sight.

I was instantly in love with him. But no, it was something more than love. The wonder that filled his eyes was infectious! I wanted to see the world the way he saw it and I knew I had to have him in my life. We made it so.

We call him Abbie, but his name is Abracadabra, just as the 8-year-old named him. She seemed to feel it imperative that we know everything about him that she knew--the games he liked, the food, the way he preferred to be petted. We understood the emotion that caused her to insist that we care for him the way she had. We understood perfectly. It's like being enchanted by fairy music. Once you enter fairyland, you never want to come back.

We considered Abbie a loner when he first came to live with us. A loner and an explorer. I suppose one would feel compelled to explore if infected by the wonder-lust reflected in those eyes. One of his favorite spots to explore was the top of the kitchen cabinets. Many times, when counting cats before leaving home--an activity I highly recommend when you live with 5 cats--I would wander the house calling Abbie! Abbie! At last, remembering to look up, there he would be, atop the kitchen cabinets, watching me. Wonder eyed!

Although the other four cats accepted a routine of twice-daily feedings, Abbie preferred small meals, several times each day. He somehow convinced me to willingly comply with his wishes. For the last 10 years, I've gotten up at least twice during the night to feed him. And the amazing part, the wondrous part, is that it never bothered me. Enchanted!

How could one not fall in love with a little guy that had started sleeping with you, in the same spot every night, just so he could let you know when he was hungry without waking the entire house. Each night when I go to bed, I smooth the spot that is his spot in anticipation of his arrival. Eventually, I wake to his presence and his quiet little "brrrppt" that lets me know it's time to eat.

He developed a routine to communicate with us at mealtime, or should I say to train us. The procedure involved stretching the right foreleg to touch my leg with his paw--meaning that he would like another spoonful--then moving toward the door and looking back over his shoulder toward me to let me know that we could return to bed.

He loved the sound of ice tinkling in a glass or bowl. Simply adding ice cubes to his water dish would bring him racing from some remote part of the house to enjoy a long, cool, sip.

Lying there in bed on that February morning, I thought of all those things and more. I thought about how much we had bonded, he and I, in the last couple of years. I thought of the other four cats and their health issues, and the fact that Abbie was never ill.

"You and me," I said to him while stroking his back. "You and me forever."You will probably be here with me when the others are gone, I thought. It was only a week later that we had to say goodbye to him.

It is so very true, what my friend Bob says about them. "They are so small and yet they take up so much space in our lives, and when they leave us, they leave a great empty space in our hearts.

Abbie has left that great empty space in our hearts and his leaving has shattered a bit of that enchantment, tarnished something of the wonder. But that won't last long. I know that it will change because Ms Wonder and I will be eternally grateful to him for that gift of wonder and we will strive to remember that his leaving can only enhance it in the long run.

Thank you, Abbie! That early morning when you and I enjoyed our last full moon together, you taught me that even on the darkest night, one need never lose the enchantment and wonder of this great, wide world. You taught me to believe in magic.

Traffic Was Terrific!

"Genome!" I heard my name as soon as I stepped inside the door to Native Grounds. It was my two favorite caffeine addicts who, bless their hearts, had not expected to see me on this Easter morning.

I faced them and opened my arms wide to show that I was as happy to see them as they were to see me. Lupe immediately jumped up as though a stick of dynamite had warmed her seat and she began doing her Genome dance to the amazement and amusement of the holiday morning crowd.

"We didn't think you'd be here this morning," said Claudia. "Wasn't the traffic terrific?"

"If by terrific you mean terrific as in the song, There's No Place Like Home for the Holidays," I said. "As I remember, the words are, From Atlantic to Pacific, gee, the traffic is terrific. If that's the meaning, then I'd have to issue a resounding, No."

"You may not be aware," I said, "but the Memorial Bridge has reopened! That makes this day not only a holiday but a zippy-dee-do-dah day!"

"Wonderful!" they said in two-part harmony, or so I like to think.

"Yes," I said, "so much better than the previous weeks when Wind Horse was forced to circle the city before getting the all-clear to enter the downtown traffic stream. As I remember, the exact instructions from the traffic controllers were, Tuscon, you're cleared for landing as long as you stay in the two right lanes then take the second exit to 3rd Street Wilma. 

Upon hearing that last statement, Lupe gave me a crooked smile and shook her head to indicate that she'd rather I didn't go there.

"Complicated," said Claudia, "sounds like landing instructions for an airplane." Lupe turned toward her with a wrinkled brow. She seemed to think that we'd been diverted from the subject at hand. She was right of course but the whole thing suited me well so I continued to move it along.

"It was only Princess Amy up to her usual hijinks in an anxious moment," I said. "Last week you will remember, I was quite nervous about being in the left lane when I needed to be in the right. The traffic next to me was so dense, I couldn't see any possibility of merging."

"What did you do?" asked Claudia. Lupe placed her arms akimbo--is that the word I'm looking for--and then stamped a foot. She didn't approve of the direction of the conversation and wanted to make it clear.

"Princess Amy got hotted up," I said, "and shouted, Be worried!", but I remained calm and reassured her that although I was a bit nervous about the situation, it was not my first time."

"But when the truck ahead of me tried to occupy the same space that Wind Horse was occupying, I asked the Universe if there was anyone in the next lane who knew how to safely and responsibly drive a car. I also reminded her--the Universe--that a safe driver who had not had fish for dinner would be preferable."

"What did fish have to do with it?" asked Claudia. Lupe sat down and began thumbing through her phone. No doubt she was looking for something to help pass the time.

"Fish?" I said. "I'm afraid you have me in deep waters there. I heard it once in my youth while watching the movie Airplane, and thought that if it was important when flying then it was probably important when driving."

"Today is Easter," said Lupe, and I don't have to tell you why she brought up this new subject when the subject at hand was completely bereft of Easters.

I decided to give the young geezer a break, meaning Lupe, not Claudia, and follow the path of her diversion as though I didn't notice her attempt at misdirection.

What I had noticed when she mentioned the holiday was that a throng of coffee addicts, all of them complete strangers, never before seen in the Castle Street District, occupied Native Grounds this morning. All of them were probably visiting the metropolis of Wilma to take Mom to Easter brunch.

All these unfamiliar faces gave the place an air of Bizzaro Bean Traders. Not a pleasant experience by any reckoning. Still, it was made tolerable by the unique aroma of the globally grown and locally roasted.

All in all, I'd say it was a pleasing gift of a fine spring day and one worthy of appreciation. I wish you a day just as fine today. Thank you for being here to share a little piece of my holiday. Jah's blessings to you.

Magic In the Music

I was hoping to see a familiar and friendly face as I opened the door and entered the caffeine den. I wasn't disappointed. Two of them were present.

"Good morning," said Claudia. And right behind her greeting came the salutation from Lupe, "Welcome back to Wonderland," she said.

"It's very good to be back on the home field," I said. "Now, what is the urgent crisis that we're dealing with?"

"Not an urgent crisis," she said.

"Not urgent?" I said. "Then why all the texting demanding that I appear for questioning?"

I was aware of some giggling coming from the direction of Claudia. She's a giggler. I don't know why.

"I have good news for you, silly. I've found Molly Mysinger's ring and I thought you should be the first to know since you're the jamoke tasked with finding it."

"The ring! You've found the ring that Gwyn lost? This is good news."

"Yep, Gwyn had me preparing the planting beds at the Inn, and when I was cleaning out the fountain near the front gate, I saw it sparkling in the sunlight at the bottom of the fountain."

"Do you have it with you? I won't feel really good about it until I have it in my hands."

"That's what I want to talk to you about," she said. "But first, why are you so down? I thought you'd be happy about the ring."

Oh, I'm happy about it," I said. "It's just that I've been a little blue lately."

"What's the problem?" said Claudia.

"No problem," I said. "It's the weather forecast in Wonderland. Overcast with a chance of rain today and for the foreseeable future."

"Wonderland? Why do you guys keep talking about Wonderland?" she said. Her brow had taken on that scrunched look that usually comes from eating a fruit smoothie too fast or the expectation of another trans-dimensional discussion between Genome and Ms. Mankiller.

"Well, it's like this," I said. "I've always been a strange combination of quantum physics nerd and angel channeler, and the combination is a mixture that's highly unstable."

"Whaaat?" said Claudia.

"He means he can't make up his mind where he should place his faith," Lupe said. His options are the Buddhist concept that everything is empty or the spiritual concept that the conscious universe is your best friend. I may have marred some of the details; I'm not an expert in his philosophy."

Claudia frowned again. I was beginning to think she had a smoothie hidden away somewhere.

What you need," said Lupe turning once more to face me, "is one of those music-based treatments that are based directly on the biology of neurological impairment and recovery."

"If it's anything like Laugh Yoga, you can forget it," I said. "I've been there and it's a dead-end road with no detours."

"Not at all," she said. "I read about it in Scientific American Mind. The musical-based treatments aim to restore functions lost to injury or neurological disorders by enlisting healthy areas of the brain. Among the beneficiaries are people diagnosed with stroke, autism, tinnitus, and depression."

"Will, forgive my doubt, but I'm familiar with many of the so-called cures for tinnitus, and autism, and it sounds like snake oil to me; one cure for whatever ails you."

"Snake oil?" said Claudia.

"You could consult a shaman in the highland tropical forests of Peru," said Lupe. I believe they know of other cures."

"I don't plan to be in Peru anytime soon," I said and I meant it to sting. I felt this little land-shrimp wasn't showing the proper rally-round spirit with all this Scientific Mind mumbo-jumbo.  

"Researchers have noted that those with aphasia, even though they don't speak fluently, may be able to sing words and phrases with no difficulty," she continued, completely ignoring my last comment. "The treatment is known as melodic intonation therapy."

"I don't care about melodic intonation therapy," I said and I may have raised my voice because it was then that I noticed most of the patrons of the cafe were looking in our direction. But to be fair, they may have been attracted by Lupe's swaying dance that accompanied her introduction to melodic IT.

"Music is persuasive and compelling," she continued, still apparently unaware that I was speaking. "When patients believe in their treatment, their attitude tends to remain positive."

I said nothing more on the subject but gave her one of my patented looks; the one designed to convey no emotion much like the ancient Greek stoics.

"Lupe, all I need to know about music therapy was brought to the Billboard charts by the Loving Spoonful in 1965." 

"And what's that then?" she said.

"There's magic in the music and the music's in me," I said.

"Well, do you know the song, The Magic in the Music, by Sophia the First in the Princess Prodigy?"

"Sounds like a romantic comedy that Shakespeare could have written but I'll let it pass. What's the message in it?" I asked.

"Strike up a spell anytime you choose it," she said. "Then you can feel the magic; all the magic in the music."

"I like it," I said.

"Knew you would," she said. 

Claudia nodded. "Me too," she said.

"You always come through, Lupe," I said. "She always comes through," I said to Claudia.

"For me too," she said. "There's no other like her."

"I'm not sure I'm ready to go that far," I said. "But I'll take it under advisement."

Make It So!

Wind Horse rocketed across the Holmes Bridge and straight into the mouth of downtown if mouth is the word I'm looking for. And before anyone asks, and I'm sure that someone is thinking about it even now, the bridge referred to is not the Holmes Street Bridge in Shakopee, Minnesota. 

I realize that bridge is a noteworthy one because it's the state's only example of a deck truss bridge. But for God's sake, let's not get sidetracked by another diversion.

The bridge I refer to crosses the Cape Fear River and empties into 3rd Street leading to downtown Wilmington. As I was saying, Wind Horse charged straight into the road and I was reminded of a poem we memorized in Crystal Cove Elementary School. You may remember the poem unless you came along after poetry was banned from public education.

The poem is called, The Charge of The Light Brigade, and begins with "Half a league, half a league, de dum, de dum, de dum, and then delivers the punchline...

"someone had blundered"

That summed up my feelings perfectly. Someone had blundered, and it wasn't me. I'd done everything humanly possible to sort out a life worth waking up for but my higher power had slept in, apparently.

If you're a regular visitor to the blog, you won't be surprised when I say that I soon found myself parked in front of Circular Journey Cafe. The place is my favorite downtown caffeine den, and I was looking forward to meeting up with members of Team Genome. Specifically, my god-niece, Lupe Lightfoot Mankiller, and her BFF, Claudia Solviegh Bensen. 

Stage direction: Genome enters Native Grounds. 

"Genome!" said the pair. "What's going on? What's the emergency?"

Sit down and tell us everything, said Lupe. "You look like someone who drank from the cup of life and found a worm at the bottom."

"What's the matter?" I said. "You want to know what's the matter? I'll tell you. I've had it! I'm tired of reading about all the other bipolar bozos who've become rich and famous and while I haven't quite gotten there. In other words, where's mine?"

I paused long enough to order a double cappuccino with oat milk and a sprinkle of nutmeg. I know! Nutmeg! Don't get hung up over it; I felt like a change of habit was called for.

"I understand exactly what you mean, dear old ancestor," said Lupe. "You might feel better if you got a haircut. You look like a chrysanthemum."

"I know you're only trying to help me feel better," I said as the two imps snickered at Lupe's joke. "But I've asked you to meet me to discuss my revised evil plan for world domination. Let's start now."

"Wait, wait, wait," cried Claudia. "You're getting far ahead of me. First, are you really Lupe's ancestor, and do you actually have an evil plan?"

Lupe placed a hand on Claudia's arm and shook her head while gently patting the arm.

"We Genomes do not lightly forget," I said. "Well, we do forget some things like appointments, people's birthdays, and mailing letters, but we don't forget abject suffering.

I don't know if you're aware, but yesterday, I experienced what your grandparents' day was called a nervous breakdown. I lost all structural support and collapsed into a heap on the floor."

"We heard," said Lupe. "And we want you to know that we're here for you even when we don't appear to be."

"Yeah," said Claudia. "We'll be your structural support."

"I spend all day, every day," I said, "looking for the silver lining, a little light music, a bit of cheerfulness. And what do I find? Grief! That's what I find. Loads of unrequited grief. I've had enough!"

Lupe patted my right hand, and Claudia patted my left. I expected them to pat my head next. It was turning out to be a big day for patting.

"Whenever I get that depressed," said Lupe, "the feeling turns into anger and I go out into the street and start knocking peoples' hats off. That usually helps."

"But that's all done," I said. "From now on, it's going to be a different story. Today, I finally open that gate and step out onto the yellow brick road. From there, I will move forward one step and one day at a time."

"And there's no better time like the present," said Claudia. "Shakespeare says, if you're going to do something, you might as well pop right at it and get it over with."

"Forget Shakespeare," said Lupe. "He's a bum. Listen to Jean Luc Piquard instead:

Make it so, Data! Engage!"

With her words of encouragement, I shot out of my chair as though I'd sat on a tack. I practically flew out the door and into the wide, blue, open. And I'm still engaged today, engaged like the dickens! Buckle up is my advice and make sure the safety bars are in place. It's a wide, wild, windy world we're riding through, Billy Bob!

Magic Happens

I don't know if you're familiar with the story of Mrs Lot and her rather fantastic finish? If so, you may want to skip to the next paragraph. However, if the name doesn't ring a bell, then here's the gist:

The unfortunate woman was the victim of history's worst practical joke. We must assume it was a practical joke because the story, as it's recorded leaves room for doubt. We do know that when told by her companions, 'Don't look now...', what do you think she did? Of course, she did look. Don't we all when told not to? 

The courtyard of Straw Valley

That much of the story isn't so fantastical but now we come to the punchline. When she looked, by some odd coincidence, according to my sources, (you aren't going to believe it), she turned into a pillar of salt! I know! Who'd have guessed? Salt!

The reason I mention it here is that a very similar thing happened to me this morning when Ms Wonder told me to let the Straw Valley thing go. You remember that I hoped to teach public qigong classes at that jewel of venues until I bobbled a reply to the event planner.

At any rate, while revisiting some old emails, I found an unopened missive from that same organizer. Reading from left to right, it said, 'I'd like to set up a day and time to talk.' 

Well, if you've been following along, you know how much I wanted this gig so it should not surprise you that I sat frozen with the smartphone in my hands like one of those peasants, who talk back to a wizard and--presto!--they turn into a pillar of salt, or something. Forgive me if I misalign some of the details.

And so this very morning I found myself walking into the courtyard of Straw Valley with an appointment to review the space with the planner. At the very moment I entered the coffee bar, I saw her walking my way and, I thought it very auspicious that she wore a smile.

It's moments like this that you find the Genome at his best--ice cold brain working like a Swiss army knife. Nothing creates so unfortunate a first impression as the hesitant utterance and the shifting from one foot to another like a south-side Fred Astaire. But I was up for it. I'd found the middle way. I'm sure, considering this and that, it must have been not unlike the Buddha.

As soon as she began to speak, I realized that this young woman created her own future, making things happen by sheer force of will. I quickly gave up control and simply allowed it all to happen. We agreed to begin with Sunday morning classes as soon as the new year could get here. I hoped it wouldn't be delayed by some unforeseen solstice nonsense.

I was deep into the moment, allowing the Universe to work its magic, and as I slowly emerged from the void, I heard her say something about making the deadline for the Indy newspaper and then she was gone with the wind. A sharp cry of joy escaped my lips. 

The sun, once hidden behind a gray veil, came shooting out like a startled rabbit, rolled up his sleeves, and got down to some serious shining. Birds in the shrubbery sang in four-part harmony, five probably, and I saw the world through a pink mist.

I knew it would be a perfect day when the barista swirled a heart into the foam of my morning latte.