"Once," I said, "but it happened so long ago that the scar is barely noticeable. Can you see it?" I asked, pointing at my nose.
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"Once," I said, "but it happened so long ago that the scar is barely noticeable. Can you see it?" I asked, pointing at my nose.
Zeus in Red Converse
I’d been awake for a minute or two—long enough to determine that I would probably survive—when Ms. Wonder peeked into the bedroom. She was wearing a geometric print blouse and black slacks. Not that it matters; I mention it only in passing.
“What’s with this?” I said. “Why aren’t you working?”
“I wanted to make sure you were okay.”
“Wow,” I said, “it must be serious if you’re checking on me. Does my face look swollen?”
“Not bad. How are you feeling?”
“The right side of my face throbs with my pulse, but other than that, I feel fine.”
I rolled out of bed, thinking I’d spend the afternoon at Luna Cafe. But when I walked into the kitchen, I managed to spill my water bottle, drop yogurt on my shoe, and drip coffee down the front of my pajamas.
Well, that does it, I thought. Driving to Luna would be risky. Apparently, the gods had taken the afternoon off, or maybe they’d left for Florida to escape the cold snap along the Carolina coast.
“I don’t know,” said Wonder. “Maybe you’re looking to the wrong god for support.”
I cut my eyes in her direction, surprised that she knew what I'd been thinking. I mean, sure, she works in mysterious ways, her wonders to perform and all that, but this was over the top.
“I was thinking of Zeus,” I said, attempting subterfuge and misdirection to disarm her defenses.
“He’s not in Florida,” she replied. “In fact, he hasn’t been heard from in centuries.”
“Surely not that long,” I said.
“I’m afraid so. I’m pretty sure he’s no longer around.”
“You mean he’s clocked out?” I asked. “How did he go?”
“I think it was ruled natural causes,” she said.
“Makes sense,” I replied. “I mean, who would want to kill Zeus?”
“Probably lots of people,” she said. “He was an okay guy, but he messed around a lot. And I think he owed a bunch of people money.”
“I won’t be the same with him gone,” I said.
“It hasn’t been the same for a long time,” she said. “I’m told there’s another one now.”
“A replacement for a god? Now that’s something to think about over afternoon coffee.”
“The cycle of life,” she said.
“Well, yeah,” I said, “I suppose that’s the only way to look at it. But still, it seems like replacing a god wouldn’t be so easy. My crown upgrade was more challenging. Do you suppose they keep a file of applicants in an office cabinet somewhere?”
“I think they use an app called "Indeed" now. But however it happened, you know that Zeus wasn’t real, right?”
“Someone thought he was real,” I said, “and when you get right down to it, that’s all that counts.”
Suddenly, I remembered reading somewhere that Zeus wore red Converse tennis shoes. The thought seemed to support his existence. I chose not to bring it up, though, because Ms. Wonder appeared to be musing on what I’d just said, and that was good enough for me.
“Still,” I said, “it just feels wrong to go around replacing other people’s gods.”
“For sure,” she said.
Happy, Joyous, and Free
Belloc* wrote about "the unchanging place where all we loved is always dear." He described it as where "we meet our morning face to face and find at last our twentieth year."
His words speak to me about memories stored in my mind and heart--memories of an idealized time where everything I once cherished—people, places, events—remain as meaningful and precious as ever.
When he speaks of facing the morning of our twentieth year, he means the place and time where we realize our cherished youth is behind us, and we come face-to-face with our future, with all its challenges and opportunities.
I read somewhere that when a patient wakes from anesthesia, the doctor asks several questions to assess their level of awareness. One of the questions is, "How old are you?"
Regardless of the patient’s age, the first response is often "nineteen." That answer may be repeated until sufficient consciousness returns to respond accurately.
For me, the age corresponding to Belloc's "carefree fields of a glorious period" came much later in life. I suppose the age isn't the same for all of us.
My passion for life, my friends, my overwhelming optimism, and my bubbling enthusiasm from that "glorious period" shine through in every story that Princess Amy shares with me about the present—whether joyful or sorrowful, whether truthful or embellished.
The Genome I remember before "meeting my morning face to face" was a kind, chivalrous, naive, aunt-ridden, code-driven, schoolboy.
I tend to overlook the low expectations for happiness that haunted those mornings. It was sufficient for me to simply escape uncomfortable circumstances.
In The Circular Journey, the Genome frequently faces bewilderment, indignity, and bullying. The source of my predicament typically lies with one of two nemeses—either Fate's practical jokes or my misguided belief that I'm the Lord of Misrule.
I almost always pay for my escape through some form of atonement or forfeit, but in the end, I'm happy to simply escape unscathed.
There’s an important life lesson in all of this—a lesson that, if I truly embrace it, could potentially transform my life and help me live happily, joyfully, and freely. However, I don't have a clue what that lesson might me. If you have any insights, please share them in the comments.
Moons Out Of Orbit
"Oh, sorry, my morning is going well," I said, and I was about to ask her the same, but she didn't wait to be asked. Good for her, I thought, seize the reins and all that.
"Mine's crap," she said. "I've totally lost my mojo. Something has gone wrong in my energy zone and everything is out of whack."
Thank You, Jackie!
My Happy Place
The dreams playing in my sleep were dark and uncomfortable, and I wanted nothing more than to get out of them and into the light of day.
I woke early with words to write—words that bubbled up in my mind as I tried to make sense of the dreams that had disturbed my sleep. Even before our morning constitutional, I was sitting at my vintage desktop computer, writing away, as if words could untangle the muddle of my heart.
If you feel the urge to complain about the poetry, please remember this is only a draft. I realize that I'm near the edge of that slippery slope and I'm taking steps to correct it. I promise.
After our walk, I was anxious to get back to my blog. Too much delay could cause me to lose the atmosphere. A proper atmosphere is everything when writing a blog like mine.
"Five," I said.
"Genome, you've written over 100 blog posts this year..."
"The count is 108," I said.
"And five more before the middle of the month? You're really on a roll."
"I love it," I said. "I don't want to stop."
She gave me a knowing look, one accompanied by a smile, and then she said, "I know you have something you want to say to me. Let's hear it."
"As you know," I began, "Most of my days are spent under the influence of one or more emotional storms. When the mood of the day features some combination of anxiety and depression, I try to find something funny in it and then write it up in The Circular Journey."
"I know," she said. "It's a form of therapy for you, it's entertainment for me."
That was all I needed to hear. There is no greater gift for me than winning her approval. I would' been happy to muse on her words for the rest of the day, but I couldn't stop the flow of words.
"Although I intend my stories to be light and whimsical," I said, "I take my writing seriously and work hard to make it as good as possible. I make each day's story sound better than it actually is, and I find that the more I write, the more I enjoy living in this protected garden my life has become."
"And my life, too," she said.
“Yes," I said, and I paused for a second to let her words sink in before continuing. "You see, it's something I can feel good about because I created it, and I like it. A blog is a living thing. People will be reading it years from now."
"Just look at it," I said, turning the screen so that she could see it. She not only saw it, she read the last paragraph I'd written.
"Under cover of rain,' she began, 'the morning graced roses with washed and glowing faces, hanging limp in nearby spaces, reflecting from the road."
We shared a moment--I was thinking about how proud I was of the post. I suspect she was wondering if I ever use her photographs to illustrate my posts. She likes to protect her copyrights and I don't blame her.
"It's poetry," she said and then gave me a blank look as though expecting me to fill in the gaps.
"I can't help it, Wonder." I said. "When my fingers touch the keyboard, I feel this compulsion to write something ====what and what? But I can control it. I just have to be rigorously vigilant."
To quickly change the subject before she could get a toe-hold, I said, "This story is 756 words long! Imagine--an entire story in less than 800 words."
"I know how challenging it can be to tell a story in so few words," she said. "I remember magazines that published our travel articles gave us a limit of 1200 to 1500 words, which was challenging enough."
"I have a unique style," I said, warming to the subject. "My words draw you in. You think you know what I'm about to write, and then you realize that I toyed with you, and then you chuckle. You can't help yourself."
"Do you ever wish you were still a freelance travel journalist?" she asked.
"No way," I said. "Blogging is my future, Wonder. I create a lovely garden--a protected Eden. Writing is my happy place. Even Princess Amy is OK with it."
"So there's absolutely no downside," she said. "Perfect."
"Well, I said, "the spell-checker can be annoying. I often make up words and Grammarly doesn't approve of them. Makes me stop in mid-composition to deal with it."
"You know, you can add those words to the Grammarly dictionary and stop the interruptions," she said.
Welcome to My World
There's another reason I like to get to know, especially actors. Many actors seem to share my thoughts, my attitudes, and my values on the subject of how we should treat others. In other words, they seem more accepting and less judgemental than the general public.
You may not agree. I know that many don't, and that's ok. Agree or not, you probably understand why I usually expect the guest on the show to be the center of attention. But that doesn't happen on the Tonight Show.
When Fallon is alone on the set, it's all about him, and why not? It's his show. But when he's joined by a guest--shall we say, Taylor Swift, it's never all about her. It's about Jimmy and Taylor.
Wicked or Not
A sunny winter morning dawned, about a week after Potential Cyclone 8 flooded the Carolina coast, and the water was still deep.
The damage to local roads had kept us close to home for too long, but this beautiful day called for a communion with nature at Waccamaw State Park, the perfect spot to stretch our legs without getting our feet wet.
We'd barely begun our walk through the flooded swampland, and already, the forest canopy, lush and towering, closed in around us. Ms. Wonder walked ahead of me, closely surveying the terrain. She was undoubtedly wary of the danger posed by spiders, bees, and snakes. I know I was.
"Be sure to look down and all around before you look over," she said in a tone as steady as her steps.
Her suggestion stopped me in my tracks, like one of those kids in fairy tales who turn to stone immediately after mocking a wizard.
I don't know how she does it. No matter the location, the situation, or the circumstances, this wonder-working woman comes up with the right assessment at the right time. She never fails to amaze me.
And yet, something was amiss. I can't explain it, but her words of wisdom caused me to feel lacking in some way. It was the feeling one might have if standing in front of the Great Throne of Judgement with the judge stroking his beard and saying, "Hmmmm."
What was needed, I thought, to put the chi energy back in balance and restore serenity was an equally pithy quotable from me. Well, you know how it is when a snappy rejoinder is called for, and you have precious little time to compose one. Still, the Genomes are always willing to try, so I did the best I could under the circumstances.
"Remember," I said. "Where there is one, there are others. And if there are others, there are many." And I felt pretty bucked about it, too.
She reacted by assuming a look that I couldn't decipher. Was she impressed? Puzzled? Offended?
Do you think it was harsh? I hope not. I didn't mean it to be harsh. I was going for something equally as pithy as hers without seeming competitive.
I was reminded of the moment in Wicked when Elphaba and Glinda part ways, each unsure if they’ve said too much or too little. It’s something we can all relate to, I'm sure.
It was a full week after Potential Cyclone 8 and the Carolina coast was still soaked—with water and wisdom alike.
I may always defer to Ms. Wonder's moral compass, but your insights are much appreciated. Leave your thoughts in the comments.